Thursday, August 7, 2008
Dreaming
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Sophia Grace
I understand now who Evangelin is and what she is doing for me every day. She is within me in such a way I felt as if her and I were one. I now see she is my spirit guide sending me the people and resources I need as I continue my transformation.
Connect to spirit is the message I've been receiving from Evangelin. As I sit in the quiet and clear my mind I begin to know myself. I see my best interests materialize in my heart as a short list of desires. Children, my expression, creator energy, writing, soul evolution, self love, sisterhood, goddess. Much more swirls around me asking me to be the old self in a fearful voice. Spirit calls my name, but I can't quite understand it. The swirling intrusion muffles the sound of me. I go back to my list and start with children. The below is what I saw as I let go of all that called to me.
As I connect to my spirit I hear "Sophia". Beauty from within the essence of joy encircles me. A second time, I hear "Grace". A vision of a long dark haired girl standing waiting for me. I can feel she is nervous I may not see her. She's 3 years young in a red flower print dress with her hands clasped making a bowl. She's looking down into her hands shoulders slumped. I call to her "Sophia Grace"; I pause for her response. I tell her it's time to go, and she looks up. Her serious dark eyes in thought break for a moment and smile to me, yes it's time.
We are all born of love from that great white river that flows through the universe. I dreamed so long ago of flying over it and as I looked into it my vision cleared and my knowing began.
Monday, December 24, 2007
Beliefs
Recently I shared with friends that I'm not a believer. I felt I needed to state this out loud because of the effects beliefs have on communities. I feel the severing of connections for the sake of a belief in God's word to the point pf harming another. I am discovering that beliefs are static whereas ideas are open flowing paths of energy. Ideas can occur in the heart filling a person with a sense of purpose. Ideas change and evolve as each of us evolves.
A friend responded that when asked the question of Do you believe in God. She states it's not a matter of believing, I know the divine and don't feel a need to name it. Another shared that she sees belief as something off to side of faith, and that she has faith in the something greater. Through these discussions I received the message I needed. Faith is the leap and ideas are the messages. Having faith in my ideas is what I am becoming.
I know we are all transforming into the lightness we were born from, and the transformation requires the letting go of the old self.
In my own transformation, I am at a place in which I need to let go of who I was and embrace the light that is my authentic self. This is an idea I've recently received. I have been resisting the changes in my life. The resistance is out of fear of judgement from those I love. I know I am loved and I must now let go of Kay and embrace Evangelin. I have a new dream for my life. In it are children, writing, healing, and all of this is encircled in love. I am an idea of a dream I had last night. The idea is ever changing open, soft full of love and light.
I know my light was born of the divine. I do not need to name the divine. I only need to name myself, Evangelin.
I'm living through my heart.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Ramsey Turns Two!
Ramsey's birthday party was a blast.
He had friends from school to help him celebrate by jumping and playing at Little Gym's. This is his favorite place to run, jump, laugh, and play.
Check out the air track he is jumping on with great concentration. He's the cutie in orange shorts.
His second favorite activity is to roll on the wheel. Here Mom is guiding him while he prepares for the big finish.
You can see he is happy to be a wheel. Even better is the landing!
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Ramsey's 2nd Birthday