Beliefs

I have been discussing beliefs with friends for the past two years, and have been struggling with how to express myself concerning beliefs. I've been asked if I believed in God, Angels, Reincarnation, Soul Ascension, and Karma to name the top five. In most instances I find myself quieted by the question. I understand that our lives feel finite and that feeling can translate into a decision of believing or not.

Recently I shared with friends that I'm not a believer. I felt I needed to state this out loud because of the effects beliefs have on communities. I feel the severing of connections for the sake of a belief in God's word to the point pf harming another. I am discovering that beliefs are static whereas ideas are open flowing paths of energy. Ideas can occur in the heart filling a person with a sense of purpose. Ideas change and evolve as each of us evolves.

A friend responded that when asked the question of Do you believe in God. She states it's not a matter of believing, I know the divine and don't feel a need to name it. Another shared that she sees belief as something off to side of faith, and that she has faith in the something greater. Through these discussions I received the message I needed. Faith is the leap and ideas are the messages. Having faith in my ideas is what I am becoming.

I know we are all transforming into the lightness we were born from, and the transformation requires the letting go of the old self.

In my own transformation, I am at a place in which I need to let go of who I was and embrace the light that is my authentic self. This is an idea I've recently received. I have been resisting the changes in my life. The resistance is out of fear of judgement from those I love. I know I am loved and I must now let go of Kay and embrace Evangelin. I have a new dream for my life. In it are children, writing, healing, and all of this is encircled in love. I am an idea of a dream I had last night. The idea is ever changing open, soft full of love and light.

I know my light was born of the divine. I do not need to name the divine. I only need to name myself, Evangelin.

I'm living through my heart.